I Had A Miscarriage During Quarantine

It has taken me a long time to FINALLY put this on my website.

I think putting it on here just feels that much more real also, as much as I want to share my story I’ve had my reservations because I don’t want this part of my journey to takeover my entire identity.

With that said, my desire to spread awareness and normalize these conversations overpowers any fears and concerns I have so, this blog post is the first of many to share my journey through infertility and miscarriages in hopes of helping any woman that needs to read this.

The entry that follows is from my original Instagram post where I decided to open up about my miscarriages.

As I sit here, ready to hit the "share" button I am filled with so many mixed feelings.

You cannot imagine how difficult it is to share such a personal part of my life, partly because once I put it out there, I can't take it back & now everyone will know this secret that has been weighing so heavy on me.

I can't believe that this is my truth...

But, it is...

And I refuse to live in shame or in silence!

As it is, having a miscarriage tends to make women feel overwhelmingly isolated & alone. And that's why I decided to share, because I can't seek support from anyone if I continue to keep this a secret.

And, I'm sharing my story because I know firsthand how miscarriage can make women feel

Scared

So very confused

And lonely

But the sad truth is, that we are not alone. There are many of us. And that's why we should talk about it. This subject should NOT be taboo.

We should be able to openly grieve the loss of an unborn baby just like we openly grieve the loss of a loved one.

We shouldn't have to pretend we're ok, when we're not.

We shouldn't feel alone, because we aren't.

Unfortunately, I've been dealing with health issues surrounding miscarriage for a year now. This is our 2nd loss & now I'm ready to start sharing & hopefully help someone/anyone.

(I have since had my 3rd miscarriage and been diagnosed with a cause. I will share that information soon.)

If you are someone struggling on your journey to motherhood, my heart is with you. I wish you peace & I hope you seek support because you don't deserve to go through this alone.